“Just know, when you truly want success, you’ll never give up on it. No matter how bad the situation may get.” - Unknown
This quote really hit hard. I am the type that if I don't succeed right away, I'm done. I give up. I move on.
Since I published Distorted, there have been so many times I've almost done just that. It's too hard. It's not all fun and games. It's really a lot of work.
But...
I haven't.
Because I finally had a heart to heart with myself and I told myself it's time to try. It's time to work hard for something and to give it a chance. It's time to stop giving into my insecurities.
Those who know me know I suffer from a very fragile self-esteem. I naturally feel people just don't like me and feel I'm not worth the time of day. Yeah, it sucks and I've worked hard lately to get a grip and not worry so much. Easier said than done though.
Writing and publishing have been one of the biggest highs of my life. I am thrilled beyond words that I accomplished my goal of writing a book. This is something I've wanted my whole life. I did it.
So why think of quitting?
Because it's also one of the hardest things I've ever done. It's a whole new world I didn't know existed. It's a whole new part of my life that I wasn't fully prepared for.
But you know what?
I'm not going to.
I'm here to stay.
No matter what happens, I am determined to keep going and to work hard for something. I'm not going to follow my nature this time and give up. I absolutely love writing and will continue to for as long as I can. There are so many stories in my head waiting to be told. Even if I write them just for me, I won't stop.
Not this time.
I'm glad that you're going to keep writing, we (readers) need more authors to keep telling their stories so that we have somewhere to escape to (I know I sure do!) I really like the quote you posted at the beginning of this, I really needed to see this today.
ReplyDeleteGood luck, and I hope you keep writing!
Laura,
ReplyDeleteYou have such a wonderful talent. Please continue to share it with all of us. I read your book twice. I loved it, and cannot wait for the next. There will always be others who try to bring you down and believe me when I say its hard not to take things to heart. That what makes you such a wonderful writer because you truly feel with your heart. I to struggle with self-esteem. When you write you put yourself out there for everyone to tear you apart. When I feel down I remind myself of the famous quote by Eleanor Roosevelt, " No one can make you feel inferior without your consent". Hang in there, you got this. :)
Laura, I applaud your fighting spirit. You can do it! I had the same dream when I was in my 30s. Came close to being published, then got a midlife bonus of an unexpected pregnancy and a special needs child. Even though I had to put off my dream again for almost 20 years, I'm back to it now and building a career. NEVER give up.
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